And you tried to change, didn’t you? Closed your mouth more. Tried to be softer, prettier, less volatile, less awake... you can’t make homes out of humN beings. Someone should have already told you that. And if he wants to leave, then let him leave. You are terrifying, and strange, and beautiful. Something not everyone knows how to love. 

"I made a promise to make a change. I stay to defend and one day, things will change."

1. Make sure to read and review every topic everyday. my target is so that i can understand what am i gonna study for the next class and be prepare for myself. since the class is gonna be in Indonesian, at least i get what is the Professors/Doctors are talking about. 
2. Be diligent, say NO to laziness! i know i am such a lazybum so i need to stop myself from being lazy because as a medstudent, lazy is totally out of the equation. i wont do well in my academics if i'm lazy. therefore, you can do it mina!
3. Go ahead and be active with sports. my dad said make sure you play sports while you're there. you need oxygen in your body and at the same time to release the tension in your brain. and i did. i started to play badminton with Ghazi and Syukran as our coach. since i am that noob, i really do need a coach *cough*sebabkalahmatidenganizyan.sorryizyan*cough* because i sucked at that time. the seniors beat me down. feel bad for Izyan though. so, yes. badminton it is.
4. Study languages when i have free time. i think most knew how much i would love to speak in German, Japanese, Arab, Korean and other languages. so, why not i try to and self-thought myself like i used to.
5. Spend my money wisely. even though i'm here in Indonesia, doesn't mean i don't have to be thrifty right. i know most of my money goes to food but girl, my appetite sometimes amazed me. like come on mina! you just ate a mangkuk of bakso and mee ayam! heh. okay. therefore, spend it wisely. economics nowadays are bad. 
6. Make Mum and Dad proud! for this, i will do everything i can for them because of course they are my heart and soul so it is my duty to serve my parents. make them happy, less worry about their daughter named Mina. heheh. insya Allah my prayers to them to have a blessing life. love you ma and dad x
7. Take care and use the blade that is in my mouth wisely. people tend to think i'm always mad and angry all the time when i am actualy not. literally. whenever i gave advises and whatnot, most would say "sorry mina.""janganlah marah mina." maybe because i talk with emotion (?) and the tone made it sound mad (?). sigh. but i really do need to take care of it. please don't be offended when i talk. 

Look at me, I may never pass for a perfect bride, or a perfect daughter. Can it be,
I'm not meant to play this part? Now I see, that if I were truly to be myself,
I would break my family's heart.
Who is that girl I see, staring straight back at me? Why is my reflection someone I don't know? Who is that perfect bride? It's not me, though I've tried.
When will my reflection show, who I am, inside?
How I pray, that a time will come,
I can free myself, from their expectations
On that day, I'll discover someway to be myself,
and to make my family proud. They want a docile lamb,
No-one knows who I am.
Must there be a secret me,
I'm forced to hide?
Must I pretend that I am someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show, who I am inside?
When will my reflection show, who I am inside?

1. I have a cat named Kulub. It was named from one of the Hantu Tok Mudim's character where Sofi Jikan acted as Lebai Kulub. We thought if it was male, we'd named it Kulub and if female, it would be Sofi. The movie was hilarious though.
2. The shortest in the family. Obviously...
3. I don't talk a lot when I'm around people who didn't know me well. Sometimes I do and it depends on the mood of talking but most of the time I don't. Sorry
4. I love to read and when I read, I will not talk to anyone...even my cat lol 
5. I'm the Cinderella in the family because I fit into every clothes my brother and sister have hehehe except for their shoe wear
6. I love photography! though I don't own any digital cameras and all I have is my phone and my instax7s yet it won't stop me from taking pictures because just because you don't have one DSLR etc, doesn't mean can't be one
7. I have a weird habit where I collect whatever items (rock, receipts, straw, tissue, chocolate/candy wrapping etc) whenever a great memory happened to me on that day. 
8. I love makeups! My favourite makeup guru is @klairedelys. She's one amazing artist. Really love her work. But honestly, I only wear the basics when I'm out and on special occasions I'll use what I learn from her and other makeup gurus.
9. My favorite colours are black, purple, white and silver but currently loving the colour of red and maroon.
10. The only football match that I seriously watched was every Deutsch game on World Cup 2010 up until I went to UiTM at the end of June #GoGermany!
11. My cooking specialty is pasta. More to spaghetti and lasagna~ though I can cook other food but pasta's my favorite
12. I don't drink coffee because I hate the after breath smell and my dad won't let me drink it…until recently. It taste soo good! ☕
13. I have the fear of getting a really bad body odour even if I've applied deodorant, body spray and some perfume
14. The only few channels that I watch on the tele are FoodNetwork, HBO, and Fox Movies. If nothing's good to watch on either of them, is try to busy myself with something. 
15. I failed some of the subjects in my diploma and repeat the courses and alhamdulillah I've passed it. Everyone have their hard times in school and seriously no one is perfect. I tried my best in everything I do when it comes to my study and if that's what I get, alhamdulillah. InsyaAllah there will be a way for me to get what I want. 
16. Still trying and learning to be the best I can be about myself and my faith in everything. I believe in Allah's will and the way Rasulullah SAW handle stuff. With the guide and help from Allah, may I be able to follow His Prophet's Sunnah and His rules. 
17. I learned Deutsch all by myself through a lot of reading, speaking, and watching videos (still have to learn more) and used to learn Japanese through anime and some jDramas. 
18. I love love love to sing! not a pro but yeah. Just sing and let it all out hehe
19. I have a thing with vampires, weird zombie and mummy dolls, wolves and huskies, mermaids and a bit of dark fashion
20. I love extreme outdoors but I also love to stay indoors. So a bit of both in every way is fun!✌

If you want to focus more on Allah in your prayers, focus more on Him outside your prayers.Allah gave us the standard to live by when He instructed: "Say! Indeed my prayers, my sacrifices, my living and my dying are for Allah, Lord of all the worlds." (al-An'aam, 6:162)

"All aspects of our lives should lived in a way pleasing to God. Living righteously is living Islam." - Dr Bilal